05.01.09
May Day!!!
Hi, You. I’m G. This is my new online journal. The previous one ran for about three Earth-years, and exploded with myriad details but also with much misery and loneliness. Fug dat. Thus this new extravaganza — the ballast had to be dropped, the wreckage either sunk or reconstructed, the crusts cut off. I’m still me, Life is still Life, and Love is still Love (somewhere, anyway — certainly not here!); but Life…Life had run out on me. In some ways, quite literally. Something I never expected, at age 40, was finding myself completely alone, with no prospects, surrounded by the Void — and nothing else. Really. This is a calm and honest appraisal. The agony and pointlessness (that may be redundant) were very real. Thus the severing — I really do not wish to revisit those years. I covered them, I spewed every minute detail I could muster, and there is nothing left to say about all that. RENEWAL, ladies (?) and gentlemen (?), is the only way up and out of this!
Further explanations, definitions, reveries and swoons are almost certain to follow (they prolly will) — but for the apparent present we have this: A Beginning. Not a tabula rasa — I carry my experiences with me; they inform my perceptions; I do not wish it otherwise — but a new start in every practical sense!
Like many people (although my taste is better than most), I clutch handles on Life via songs — often Pop songs. I find this a sweet method of association. However, I also have done this sort of thing a lot in this medium — and while the practice is welcome to re-emerge, I doubt I’ll emphasise it quite so ardently from here until the grave.
Nonetheless, today the Pop song is appropriate. Part of me wishes to bring forth “Won’t Get Fooled Again” and “Sex Machine” and “The Taxi Ride.” There is much to sing, many feelings to reconnect. But today is Beltane. Today is May Day. Today is Renewal.
And thus, sans fanboy ardour but in sincere appreciation, I retrieve here an old favourite from the vaults, from the band (or duo) XTC — one of their holiday songs, and a brilliant one indeed. I’m also bringing it via this first post because I didn’t previously have the technical wherewithal to imbed videos. This will be my first foray into the field.
Happy and Blessed Beltane!
~G
